worst day diaries

I read a book in elementary school in a diary form, called "Worst Day Diaries" I think , and the heroine would write all her bad days down in the diary.  I suppose that xanga is kind of like my worst day diary

spring cleaning

Why does cleaning always take so long?  For me, it's because I always have to revisit the past as I pick up pieces of memorabilia, and by the time that I've done the rediscovering, reflecting, and finally deciding to store it away or throw it out...it's already nightfall. 

Two years ago I would search frantically, desperately, for the cd that he gave me for Christmas, one of the two only things he left behind but I would never be able to find it.  I came across it today

when I'm not in love with him anymore

They say that it's rude to throw out presents that were once given in good faith, but what does it mean anymore?  What does it matter anymore?

will you still love me tomorrow?

 
                                                                                                                      I suppose not.

"Later that day I got to thinking about fairy tales. What if prince charming had never shown up? Would Snow White have laid in that glass box forever? Or would she have gotten up, spit out the apple, gotten a job and a health care plan and moved on with her life?" -Carrie, Sex and the City

and i wish that i had never met you?br />

                                  byconoro'brien

               summer.  the scorching sun, the oppressing heat, the underdressed teenage girls, the restlessness of resting too much, the (crappy) summer job (or lack thereof), the 19th birthday...
if i still had the mentality of a teenage grl i could still probably cheat myself into believing in a summer romance and it might make things better. it's too bad i'm turning 19 (and going on 90, as it so seems).

i'm thinking of buying a camera for myself as an encouragement to take photography more seriously.  but should it be a holga or a digital camera?
- clearly the digital camera has more versatility, compatibility with photoshop (which i'm planning to take on this summer), and practicality,
but,
- the holga camera has multiple exposures (i can shoot as many times on a single frame as i want to), colour tint, light leak which allows for more experimentation + more fun!
what do you think?